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Grey’s anatomy season 15 episode 19:” Silent All These Years”


Alex comes up behind Jo in the hallway. She left while he was in the shower and he thinks she’s avoiding him. She says it’s not on purpose. She has one last chance to get Bailey’s full attention before she’s Chief again. Alex doesn’t believe it and asks how long they’re going to dance around the issue. He wants to know what happened with her birth mother. She avoids the question and then leaves.

Jo steps up to a house and rings the bell. Vicki Ann Rudin answers the door. Jo introduces herself and hears two kids inside the house calling out to their mom. Vicki calls back to them. Jo is surprised that she has kids. Vicki thinks she’s selling something and tries to end the conversation, but then Jo tells her that she thinks Vicki’s her mother.

While driving him to school, Bailey asks Tuck about his homework. He got it done. Ben then suggests they go get burgers to celebrate Bailey’s last night of sabbatical. Tuck says he has a thing … with Kelly. Tuck says they’re just talking and then asks to be dropped off not in front of the school. Once Bailey pulls over, he dashes off. They watch as he puts his arm around a girl.

Abby Redding is wandering around the lobby, looking around when she runs into Jo and freezes. Abby says she can’t find her way to the ER, so Jo gives her directions and then offers just to take her. Abby asks if she’s ever had just a garbage kind of day. Jo says she has many times.

In the ER, Abby gets in a bed. She says she was putting away dishes and smacked herself in the face with a cabinet. It happened last night, but wouldn’t stop bleeding, which is why she came in. Dahlia prepares to numb her. When Andrew comes to get Jo, she tells Abby she’ll be right back, but is surprised when Abby grabs her hand. Jo asks Andrew to tell Bailey she’ll be a while and give them room to stitch up Abby’s face. She asks Abby to sit up, but she whimpers with pain when she tries. Jo sends Dahlia away and closes the curtain around Abby’s bed. It’s just the two of them. Jo knows she’s hurt. Abby removes her scarf, revealing bruises on her neck. Then she pulls up her shirt, showing a large amount of bruising. Jo tells her she’s not going anywhere.

Vicki closes the door behind her and then asks Jo what she’s after. Jo says she just wants to talk. Vicki says she can’t be there. Just then, Vicki’s husband comes through with their dog. Once they’re in the house, Jo suggests a diner away where they can meet. She just wants one conversation and Vicki will never hear from her again.

Jo waits at the diner, but Vicki hasn’t come, so she gets up to go. Just as she does, Vicki arrives. She comes to sit down with Jo. She’s late for work. She works for the mayor’s office, creating jobs for the under-served communities. Jo says she has a house and a husband and kids. She’s successful. Her life is very different from the life Jo imagined her having. Vicki says she wanted Jo to have a better life than she could give her. Jo writes that off as a cliché. Vicki says it’s true. Jo asks the names of her children and Vicki tells her they’re Alexandra and Josh. Her husband’s a lawyer and he’s not Jo’s father. He’s very different. She met him, Daniel, in grad school. Jo then says she didn’t have a better life. She didn’t get adoring parents. She was in foster homes so bad he lived in a car. Then she ended up with a husband who beat her almost to death. She thinks there’s no way Vicki’s life wasn’t better than hers. Vicki says she should go and gets up to leave. Jo says she’s consistent. Vicki stops and asks if Jo came there to punish her. Jo says she doesn’t know anything about where she’s from and she wants to know. Vicki sits back down and starts to tell Jo about her ethnic heritage before Jo says she got all that from spitting in a tube. There’s a family history of cancer and heart disease. Jo doesn’t want to hear any of that. Vicki tells Jo about her childhood and asks if that helps. Jo just asks who her father is and says she’ll try to find him. Vicki says he’s dead. He hurt her more than any other person in her life and he died in a motorcycle accident ten years ago. She would have preferred a more painful death. Jo thinks she’s a monster and tries to leave, but Vicki asks her to sit back down. Jo’s father hurt her. Jo sits back down. Vicki tells the story of a TA when she was a freshman. He pursued her. He asked her for a date. She said yes to the date. She said yes to going to Braden’s Point to watch the sunset. But then he started kissing and touching her and she say no to that. She fought, but he didn’t stop. Nine months later, she had Jo and then five days later, she didn’t.

Dahlia and Jo collect evidence from Abby’s body and see that her injuries are even worse than they already knew. She’s covered in bruises. She says her husband’s on a business trip in Portland and she doesn’t want to bother him. Abby startles at a knock at the door, but Jo says she called her. It’s Teddy, whose here to help. She wants to do an ultrasound to check for internal injuries. They help Abby lie back on the bed while she groans in pain. Teddy explains each step to her as she works. Dahlia starts to cry and Jo looks at her and shakes her head. The ultrasound shows a tear in the diaphragm that has allowed her organs to migrate into her chest. She’ll need surgery to repair it. Abby says whatever they need to do so she can go home. Teddy wants to talk to Jo in the hallway, but Abby doesn’t want her to leave, so Teddy goes to prep the OR. She asks Dahlia to come out of the room with her.

Out in the hallway, Teddy tells Dahlia to have them prep the OR, but don’t let the nurses do an antibiotic prep. Abby appears as though she’s been sexually assaulted and they don’t want to destroy evidence. They want to give Abby the chance to talk about it.

Back in the room, they ask Abby how she got hurt. She says it doesn’t matter. Teddy says she doesn’t have to tell them. They can bring a counselor in for her to talk to if she wants. She doesn’t want any more doctors. She just needs her stomach to stop hurting. Jo asks about an injury on her leg. Abby makes up a story about kids playing street hockey, but Jo immediately says she doesn’t believe it’s true. Teddy admonishes her for saying that. Abby asks them just to say what they need to say. Jo says she thinks Abby’s husband hurt her and based on her legs, sexually assaulted her. Teddy tries to send Jo out, but Abby just says Jack would never hurt her. Jo says someone else did it, then. Abby just wants to have her surgery, but Jo tells her that if they go to the OR, they have to make her sterile, which means erasing all the evidence. She can still report it. Abby says there’s nothing to report. Teddy said that’s her choice, but Jo pushes her, saying if something happened, they can gather evidence and seal it away until she’s ready to do something about it. Abby says they all know if she does the kit, it’ll end up in the back of a police station, ignored for years, while Abby waits for the bomb to go off, to see if a jury of her peers will believe her, a woman who wore a skirt a few inches too short, had a few cocktails too many at a bar, after a fight with her husband. The tequila she drank will make it her fault and for the guy who did it to her, what he drank will be his excuse. She wants to know if the kit will prove it wasn’t her fault. Abby starts to wheeze, so they give her oxygen and help her calm down. Jo tells the story of her husband beating her. She was scared and alone. She never had the chance to hold him responsible. Some day, Abby might want justice and Jo wants her to have everything she needs to do that. Abby says her husband can never know and Teddy says he won’t have to. Abby tells them to do it.

Jo holds her hand as Teddy prepares to do the kit. At each step, Teddy asks if she’s ready and Abby says she is. They photograph her injuries and collect swabs from the areas where she was injured, including where he bit her. They clip her nails and comb her hair. They take swabs from between her legs. Finally, they are finished and Abby starts to cry.

Vicki confirms that she never told anyone what had happened. She convinced people she was just gaining the freshman 15. She didn’t tell anyone she was pregnant. It wasn’t until years after she was raped that she went to therapy and did the work. She wrote journals and learned triggers. She had to work to get to the point where she could call it rape, because she said yes to the date and getting in the car. The word rape has been qualified and somehow, people believe it’s not rape when you know the person. She moved forward with her life, but never once tried to find Jo. Vicki says she was petrified every single moment she was pregnant. It was bad enough to see his face every day in class. She was terrified imagining that Jo would be a boy and have his face and his voice. Every kick, every movement, reminded her where Jo came from. All the books and movies always talked about the love you feel the instant your baby is open and your heart cracks open. She told herself that once that moment happened, she could do it. She gave the hospital a fake name and she left even though the hospital wanted her to stay and rest. She just wanted to be alone with Jo and stare at her and hold her until the love came. Jo thinks the love never came. Vicki says it did. Everything they said was right. Her heart cracked open. But it was still never just the two of them. She was a reminder of him and Vicki resented her for that. Jo doubted every person she ever met her whole life, leaving them before they could leave her. Now she has a job and a husband and friends and she never stopped hoping Vicki would find her. Vicki says she did the best she could, but Jo doesn’t believe that. It’s easy to say that no, with who she is now, but after she was raped, she wasn’t that person. She wasn’t in her right mind. He smiled and hurt her and then said they could do that anytime she wanted. That’s when she lost her right mind. She looked at Jo after she was born and she could feel again for the first time, but her mind took years to come back and part of it never did. Jo deserved better, but Vicki didn’t have better to give her. Jo says she was seven weeks pregnant when her ex cracked her ribs and threw her across the floor. He didn’t know she was pregnant and Jo decided he couldn’t know. She couldn’t see a way out at that point. If she tried to leave, he’d kill her. She couldn’t raise a kid like that, so she had an abortion. She’s never told anyone that. She’s not ashamed, so she doesn’t know why. She did what she had to do. Jo asks if she looks like him. Vicki says she has Vicki’s father’s eyes, but the hair came from her along with the fire in her belly. Vicki says she did the best she could and she’s still doing the best she can. Vicki then gets up and leaves.

Abby’s getting worse, so they have to go right away. Abby starts to panic because the last time she was out, he did it. Teddy says if she doesn’t have the surgery, it can kill her. Abby says she can’t leave the room because every man has his face and it’s all she sees. Jo says she doesn’t have to.

Bailey and Ben discuss the situation with Tuck. She doesn’t know what just talking means. She wants Tuck to be happy and have all the butterflies and first love. They have to sit him down and teach him about respect and consent and condoms. Ben suggests that he can do it. His father gave him the talk and it worked.

Andrew guards a door and tells Richard he can’t go through. Richard asks why and Andrew says he’s been asked to see that he doesn’t. A nurse goes through and Richard asks about her.

In the hallway, only female employees from the hospital have gathered. Meredith asks Bailey if she knows why and Dahlia says a patient needs them. She needs all of them.

The women line both sides of the hallway.

Jo asks Abby if she’s ready and she says she is. Abby is pushed down the hallway to the elevator. They get her to the OR, where Jo continues to hold her hand. Jo promises that she’ll stay right there.

Teddy operates in a room with an all-female surgical team and talks about her experience with soldiers, women and men, who’d been brutalized like that with no way to talk about it. The way Jo talked to Abby wasn’t protocol, but it should be.

Abby wakes up and Teddy tells her she repaired Abby’s diaphragm and put in a chest tube for drainage, but it would come out in a few days. Jo says her kit will stay there, if she decides to report it. Abby knows they think she should, but Jo says it’s not their call, but they do think she should talk to someone. It doesn’t have to be her husband, but someone. Abby says she keeps going over it in her head. If she hadn’t been distracted. If she hadn’t gone down that street. Teddy reiterates that it’s not her fault. She didn’t ask for it and there’s nothing she did to deserve it. Abby says she can’t. Teddy tells her to try to get some rest. Abby’s worried her husband will look at her and see a broken person and if she tells him, it’s all he’ll ever see. Jo tells her that this doesn’t define her. Whether she tells her husband or not, if she never tells another soul, she’s a survivor. She survived. Jo still gets nauseous when she sees men with expensive shoes with pointed toes because that’s how her ex made her kidneys bleed. For years, she thought she was responsible, that she got what she deserved. But it wasn’t her fault. Abby asks if Jo has a phone she can use and Jo gives Abby hers and asks if she’ll stay. Jo says she’ll stay as long as Abby needs. Abby finally lets go of Jo’s hand to make the call.

Ben and Tuck are getting burgers. Ben talks about games they watch on TV. Everyone plays until someone gets hurt. Or someone calls time out. Then the game stops, no matter how much fun they’re having. That’s consent. Tuck’s confused, but Ben says they need to talk about it. Ben says he needs to talk to the girls he’s with and make sure she’s enjoying things at least as much as he is. If she says stop, it’s all over. Ben says being with someone you like is amazing. He wants Tuck to be safe and happy, but it can only happen if she’s happy, too. Ben makes Tuck say if she stops having fun, just plain stop. Time out. Game over. Always. Ben then asks to hear about Kelly, the girl he likes.

Abby’s husband holds her hand as she talks to the police. Jo watches from the doorway, then leaves and closes the door behind her.

Alex finds Jo as she’s leaving. He’s no longer the interim chief and he’s hungry. He asks her if she wants to celebrate with him, but she just wants to go home and go to bed. He says they can do that. She wants him to go out and celebrate with Meredith. He says he won’t judge. He just wants her to talk to him. She says she doesn’t want to talk about it. She can’t talk about it. She just wants to go home alone and sleep.

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